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I'm touched,
3:35 PM, Thursday, August 28, 2014
Assalamualaikum & Greetings.

I'm home!
Finally! After my condition is stabilized, the doctor gave permission for me to go home BUT come again another week, lol. Hence, I've become a regular there. Hee. I got up quite late today as I can't sleep comfortably with the pain on my liver. and adding up with my sis's alarm, urgh. worst condition ever but still I have my appetite back, hee. But I chose to eat porridge this morning as my grandma have cook for me, aww. I might have lunch at 4PM as I'm still full though. Now, I'm trying to kill time by maybe karaoke-ing, watching movie or maybe doing some little tiny exercise. hohoho, i'm out~
Progressing..
4:07 PM, Monday, August 25, 2014
Assalamualaikum & Greetings
I missed my caffeine addiction so much !


Auto-immune Hepatitis is da name!
liver painting copyrighted to Amami Antia-Obong

I actually forgotten how many days have I been here but I think it's almost three and Alhamdulillah my condition is getting better. Even without the drips, antibiotic and such. Today, the expert just took my blood for the liver biopsy. This morning, my parent have agreed on the biopsy as we really need to know the conclusion, the answer. Hence, the blood test is to est whether my blood is thick enough or else it'll lead to serious bleeding problems when he biopsy is done. Oh, finally the name of my disease that have been a mystery for three whole weeks have been answered, roughly though but better than none. It's the Auto-immune Hepa. Which means my antibody is confuse which to protect and which to fight so my organ is in danger because of my own antibody system. But, it is still yet to be proven by the biopsy. So, we just have to wait and see after the biopsy going, and the result come out. Hopefully, it's nothing serious.

Extending the semester?
Neat drawing by Cheyenne Woods

Yeah, i just felt like it was the best choice as I can't think of other way. It's either extending or taking many subject in a semester which is quite heavy for my brain capacity and also time. It is a workload as I saw my friends repeating subjects mostly having difficulties on arranging their schedules. I can't bear with organizing, I'm seriously bad at managing my time. Hence, it's better for me to take all my part three subject next semester, meaning I am DCS/4 next semester with all part three subjects. I don't mind though. The thing to consider is one, friend. I can't forever rely on my buddies right now, the also have a purpose to achieve here. Second is, money which my mom didn't really bother much so I need to reorganize my lifestyle to not burden my mom more. Third is, practical. Which most of the student didn't want to do, hence they need to grad on time. Yeah, i have that dream too. But, with this condition i just have to think wise because even my mom have practical once so I'm not worry on guidance. Also, I'm also kind of like challenge that is why I never refuse on being a leader even when I complaint about it a lot, it's because of the responsibilities. But, being a leader is fun and challenging. I love it, haha. After reconsidering my choices and character, I am very fine with it actually. So, I have ask the College's Representetives about how i'm gonna apply for next semester colege without enough stamps, done! I also have talk to the head of my course which is my very own java lecturer, she also guided me simply and I think it's doable. Now, i just need to contact the Academic Department for the Surat Cuti Khas and sent it to the TR to give a green light. Hopefully it'll all go well, amiin.

Turning into new leaf, looking forward to the future
Leggo~

I've tried to attempt with this one for the past 19 years of my life. It NEVER works. It is hard though but after a few weeks getting into the hospital, I decide on something new which is to never own a close friend which is not that bad for me because I am bad at friendship, I will ended up hurting someone. Hence I decided not to declare any best or true or bff or etc of a friendship. I will value a friendship with my life but I will not depend on it too much, it's burdensome. You have to give and take but sometimes even that never work, so I'll tolerate on whatever they did and be honest if it hurts me or if it destroys them. For me, friendship is about having each other back, not to feel burden to hold someone biggest secrets or worst habits, I'll show my bad side more to the one who I believe my life with and I'll be super nice to look forward for a new friendship. I am awkward with people, and will always be because I never know the part of heir life too much, I forgot a lot. Hence, lost contacts, loses my memory on them. And the one who I always meet, I can still understand their life properly as friend should. I can' be that type of person who comes to you and like, "hey, i know you from somewhere right?" because i can't even remember how many days i've been charged to this ward though. LOL. Sorry not sorry, please bear with me and all of my attitude. Oh, also I have this new goal to reach, shall I make a wishlist? I think I should in the next part, I type a lot here, meet ya in another page. ~


Feeling energetic after a boost of nap!
2:47 AM,
Assalamualaikum & Greetings
Waking Up Comic by SarahSeeAndersen

Admitted again.
Printed Tag on my wrist by My beloved Mom

I got admitted into KPJ Tawakkal in KL at the Blossom Premier Ward. Seems cute right the name of the ward? It is cuter than before as it is two person per room. it is comfortable than four but i still have the best spot next to the bathroom cos i always have diarrhea lately. The cause is because my small intestines is swollen, only small part of it but it affect my appetite, stomach, urge to go the bathroom easily. I got admitted again as I have difficulties in sleeping because of the breathing problems when the pain attacks on below my heart, on my kidney, intestines, liver literally all of my organs. It worsen when I try laying on my back. I go admitted before but that's because of my yellow eyes and this week i'm supposed to go back to my University then after two weeks anther follow-up checkup. But this matter still a problem though, so I can't really go back and have to stay here for at least another week. The doctor saying it's getting to the point where few test have run but still no conclusion yet until tomorrow. Why, because tomorrow my father gotta discuss about allowing me to go for liver biopsy or not. It's just a minor surgery just like taking a blood test but this is an organ test. Anyway, I freak out a bit but I'll still brave up myself for my health. The looks in my parents eyes are making me feel bad about not telling them even about my common cough. I felt burdening them yet still can' make them more worried about my health. I am fine though aside from the diarrhea which is why i'm on soft diet now. It is torturing my appetite. I am surely gonna eat rice with tempe and sambal tomato. I can't wait! I can only eat bread, porridge and drink lots and lots of water. I can't eat oily foods. But i's just to end my suffer from diarrhea so be it. I can only hope for the best of my own condition, the doctor's evaluation, my families and friends support, Insya Allah.

Mac & Cheese
MasterChef US Season 5


The separating mac and cheese, it looks delicious though. Urghh

Okay, I watched MasterChef US today and one of the team side dishes menu is mac & cheese which makes me growl and search for the recipes. Looking at the chefs in the making made it looks stickier. I wonder how it really made like hence i just have to seek for the recipe and as I go through two or more sites, it is quite simple. I never made it in my entire life, in my thought it was only macaroni added with cheese cream or melted cheese and done. but it's more than that, so let's check it out.


Classic Macaroni Cheese by Tracy Rutherford
Ingredient needed:

  • 400g macaroni
  • 50g butter
  • 2 tablespoons plain flour
  • 2 cups (500ml) milk
  • 2 cups (250g) grated cheese (gruyere, tasty, vintage)
  • Chopped parsley
Steps:
  1. Cook the macaroni in a large pan of boiling water according to packet instructions (different brands may vary in size & cooking times) until al dente.
  2. Meanwhile, melt the butter in a medium saucepan and add the flour. Cook, stirring, for 1 minute over medium-low heat.
  3. Gradually add the milk, stirring until smooth. Stir gently until the mixture comes just to the boil, then reduce heat and simmer for 2 minutes. Remove from the heat, add the grated cheese and stir until melted and smooth.
  4. Drain pasta and return to the pan. Pour cheese sauce over the pasta and stir until well coated. Season with salt and white pepper to taste. Serve immediately sprinkled with chopped parsley.
p/s: if i am the one who's cooking i'll left out the parsley as i dislike greeny things and i would be very rough on the measuring as I can't really follow instruction well but giving your best effort is the best in every trials. good luck!

Now, i'm tired. Gonna seek for some light entertainment then dozed off. I'm glad that the aunty who's a patient next to my ward is sleeping soundly. Goodnight aunty and for all also, thanks for reading :)

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